Secondary school i had many friends and now having moved to college i feel like i dont fit in, feel like they dont understand my weirdness. Im weird, individual, but not changing for anyone.
I'm hoping that when I go to my next college there will be people that will understand me and i will have fun, fit in and not feel insecure or feel like i have to conceal some of my personality just because some part of my brain wants the feeling of being of accepted.
I don't care if someone calls me weird, but when they say it with a mean undertone it hurts. Also people have called me slow, that hurts my feelings, she doesn't even realize she's being mean. Thats the worst bit. She thinks she's better than everybody, except of course the 'popular' pretty girls.
I got better than her on some assignment like aaaaaaages ago and ever since then she's put me down and insulted me. Don't get me wrong a little light jeering is ok , but she pushes it way to far. I have developed a thick skin in the past year but its the fact that we were really good friends at the start of the year and now its different.
I miss my old friends, they all live in different parts of the country and i hardly ever see them. I thought this year would be amazing but Ive been left disappointed.
I think ive way too high expectations.
Blogging is very therapeutic as ive been crying as i write this, feel so much better now :D
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